Working With the Boss..Oh God

8:37 am - I used to have treasures. Little things I would find or pick up. Things that when I saw them they would make me smile or feel happy. I just realized I don't have any treasures any more. Somewhere along the way my life has become sadder and smaller.

12:25 pm - Spent the whole morning in the office with Big E. Took three hours to do what I could have finished up in about one, if I wasn't waiting on him. Big E tells me when to come in to do bills so he'll be there, than spends half his time on the phone or running out to ask the guys something. I spend the time trying to stay busy with other work, but not knowing when he is going to be ready to start up another bill.

3:15 pm - All I here is how bad the economy is, and how no one is going to out shopping for Christmas this year. Yeah well they weren't in Rutland this afternoon. Two day before Black Friday, and the shopping center had police in the parking lot directing traffic. I saw way more carts full up being pushed to the register.

9:46 pm - Enjoying another night of peace and quite. Little E is out. Talked to C, to see if he'd made it to H C's house yet for Thanksgiving [and to see if M made it there without throwing up to much]. Big E and had a good talk about the business tonight, and although things still aren't looking to good, I feel better about how it is going.

A Gray November Day

7:59 am - I understand why things in our economy are tanking. I know I feel defeated. Money scares me. I'm wondering if sticking your head in the sand, turn off the news, wouldn't be a better way of life. It would at least save us from stress.

10:44 am - We just got back from a walk in the woods. Its a dark gray and wonderfully beautiful crisp day. Just a joy to be out in the woods. Besides Gr is so unbelievably happy to go for a walk, and his joy makes me happy.

12:46 pm - I just watched a guy drive around the Post Office three times, so that he could park right next to the door. Talk about lazy.

2:01 pm - I need to get my head out of my butt. I am just now having lunch. I'm in Manchester with only about half of what I need. I planned a deposit, left the money home. I forgot my book
which I normally read during lunch. I would have gone to the office and scrapped coming up here, but I had get Big E's prescription at Rite-Aid. Right now I just feel like going to sleep, like a waist of time.

6:05 pm - This is a picture perfect night. It's cool, clear, with a full moon. I could be outside hiking in the woods all night and wouldn't Gr just love that. We got back from Bennington and picking up some groceries to see three deer standing under the pear tree. They are enjoying this great night as well.

10:22 pm - Its been a nice evening with Little E here, although I think I bug him. Dinner wasn't quite healthy, I had a pint of Ben & Jerry's. It's great to be the adult.