From January 20th
10:10 am - I had to clean out the pellet stove this morning, because it stopped working. Now I have my fingers crossed it will start back up. There is no place to hide today from the ridiculous circus that is the Obama inauguration. I personally feel we are making fools of ourselves. It is a lovely day with just a little snow and breaks of bright sunshine.
Today January 22nd
8:48 am - My computer is acting up this morning. I haven't written the last couple of days, because I've been battling a bout of depression. I think, I hope the dam broke yesterday. At least at this point I'm doing better.
10:07 pm - I got a lot of work done today, only three men left to do the preliminary research on. I still don't feel just right, but at least I'm moving today, and not having negative thoughts. Big and Little E are both going away ice fishing this weekend, so maybe a weekend to myself and I can get it back together. At least for a little while.
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Thursday, January 22, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Miserable Feeling All Day
8:19 am - I just heard that Obama will be taking a train into Washington for the inauguration. He'll be taking the same route Abraham Lincoln took, except Lincoln snuck into town because of an assassination threat. I wonder if Lincoln could have ever thought that 148 years latter an African American man would become President in an America were he didn't have to sneak into Washington.
8:55 am - I feel like crying. I made it real clear to Big E that I wanted to enjoy a day of doing nothing, have no one bugging me. I'd do the laundry and make dinner, but that was it. Well I don't know who I was talking to, because it must not have been Big E.
He showed up asking me to fix breakfast, to help him with his hot tub, oh would you get this, you don't mind if I use the quilt off your bed to pack around the hose, etc. The worse part is that if I point this out to him, that once again he is just pointing out to me how little I matter in this world, I'm the bitch.
3:51 pm - I've been miserable all day. I have no reason in life and if I found one Big E would only let me have it, if it worked for him. I hate what I have let my life become. Somewhere over the years I have traded me for...well I'm not sure what I traded me for, but I know I'm lost. How do I get me back.
6:42 pm - How sad is that the high point of my day will be slipping in between nice clean sheet on a freshly made bed tonight. Of course Gr gets to use it first.
9:28 pm - So Little E hasn't come home yet and hadn't bothered to call. I broke down and called his cell to see if he was coming home tonight, to find he is at the Bennington Bowling Lanes. I don't know how I did it, but with that one I raised an un-grateful child, who now that I think about it acts way to much like his father. To top off this wonderful day, I am getting a cold sore. Please tell me that tomorrow will be a nicer day.
8:55 am - I feel like crying. I made it real clear to Big E that I wanted to enjoy a day of doing nothing, have no one bugging me. I'd do the laundry and make dinner, but that was it. Well I don't know who I was talking to, because it must not have been Big E.
He showed up asking me to fix breakfast, to help him with his hot tub, oh would you get this, you don't mind if I use the quilt off your bed to pack around the hose, etc. The worse part is that if I point this out to him, that once again he is just pointing out to me how little I matter in this world, I'm the bitch.3:51 pm - I've been miserable all day. I have no reason in life and if I found one Big E would only let me have it, if it worked for him. I hate what I have let my life become. Somewhere over the years I have traded me for...well I'm not sure what I traded me for, but I know I'm lost. How do I get me back.
6:42 pm - How sad is that the high point of my day will be slipping in between nice clean sheet on a freshly made bed tonight. Of course Gr gets to use it first.9:28 pm - So Little E hasn't come home yet and hadn't bothered to call. I broke down and called his cell to see if he was coming home tonight, to find he is at the Bennington Bowling Lanes. I don't know how I did it, but with that one I raised an un-grateful child, who now that I think about it acts way to much like his father. To top off this wonderful day, I am getting a cold sore. Please tell me that tomorrow will be a nicer day.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Like the Day After Christmas
7:00 am - We have a new president. I have been predicting a win for Obama since May, back when he was still fighting with Clinton. I believe this will be an important change for our country. Also of great importance to me our Gov Jim Douglas won a decisive victory. Now we all get back to work.
10:14 am - I'm starting to work toward being sick of my DH. He is going away tomorrow on a hunting trip, that's been planned for months and he hasn't gotten one thing ready yet. I know that he will make tonight and tomorrow morning a nightmare for me. On the plus side Little E took a trash bag to his room, so maybe some cleaning up there will happen.
11:05 am - well change of plans...I don't have to meet the realtor in Manchester now [I hope that's not a bad sign]. I do have to go to Staples for paper for the office, so I guess I'll go to Bennington.
12:41 pm - I had lunch at Friendly's in Bennington, and was planning to have one of their Spooky Sundae, but they were sold out, so much for my treat. Than after leaving the bank I forgot that I had wanted to go to Goodwill. Oh well, just keep moving. Buy the office supplies and than I'm going home, to hope for a short amount of peace.
3:05 pm - I got home to a blocked driveway. CVPS sent some tree guys up in Mom's yard to trim up the Squirrel Tree. That's what my Dad called it. Its just a hollow hickory tree that the squirrels live in. Mom is pissy that they only trimmed the tree up and didn't cut it down.
10:14 am - I'm starting to work toward being sick of my DH. He is going away tomorrow on a hunting trip, that's been planned for months and he hasn't gotten one thing ready yet. I know that he will make tonight and tomorrow morning a nightmare for me. On the plus side Little E took a trash bag to his room, so maybe some cleaning up there will happen.
11:05 am - well change of plans...I don't have to meet the realtor in Manchester now [I hope that's not a bad sign]. I do have to go to Staples for paper for the office, so I guess I'll go to Bennington.
12:41 pm - I had lunch at Friendly's in Bennington, and was planning to have one of their Spooky Sundae, but they were sold out, so much for my treat. Than after leaving the bank I forgot that I had wanted to go to Goodwill. Oh well, just keep moving. Buy the office supplies and than I'm going home, to hope for a short amount of peace.
3:05 pm - I got home to a blocked driveway. CVPS sent some tree guys up in Mom's yard to trim up the Squirrel Tree. That's what my Dad called it. Its just a hollow hickory tree that the squirrels live in. Mom is pissy that they only trimmed the tree up and didn't cut it down.
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